Can I greet?

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYBODY!Ü Mga sunsters lang ang nabati ko nung Christmas... haha. Shet di na ko nakakapost dito. I've got a site meter na, by the way, and so far I've got only 23 visitors in seven days. Olats, haha Ü Yun na muna. I'm watching Panaghoy sa Suba later with Cathy Cands, and I'm hoping to watch Enteng Kabisote with Anggak some time soon. I had a pretty so-so Christmas if anyone's interested, except for some surprise texts from certain people. Mwahaha.Ü Hope everyone's merry - merrier than me, that is - this Hallmark holiday. There's still the New Year to wait for, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed for that one. See you then!Ü

Masaya

Ako'y malungkot na naman
Amoy chico na ako
Ilang tagay na hindi pa rin tulog
Tanong ko lang sa langit
Kung bakit pumangit
Ang dating masaya
Ngayo'y panay problema bumabalot sa mundo
Bakit ganito
Ang pag-ibig
Ganyan talaga
Pag bago pa'ng pag-ibig
Ganyan talaga
Masaya.

Pagkagising ko
Nakita ko si Juan
Na syang adik sa aming lugar
Parang droga daw ang bisa
Na ginamit nya kanina
Sa una lang daw
Masarap
Ang pag-ibig
Ganyan talaga
Ako'y nilamon ng pag-ibig
Ganyan talaga
Masaya.


Isang matinding LSS 'to kahapon. All through the Sunday morning cartoons, noontime variety shows, a visit to my old house, and a trip to Tokyo Tokyo, it was playing inside my head. Even during my nerve-wracking first hold-upping incident, I was still singing this song. It was so frickin irritating because I didn't even know all the words! Well, now I do. So today I'm still singing it. Bored, bored, bored. Damn you, Bamboo!

Joe ok lang kahit di ako pinayagan. Masaya pa rin... kaya ku ata kinakanta 'to e.

Merry Christmas Party

Antagal ku nang hindi nagsusulat dito! Anyway thesis mode muna 'ko kase papatayin na 'ko ni Sir Bong at Sir Nat kaya next year na 'ko makakasulat dito ng matinu-tino. Christmas party ng ECE batch namin ngayong gabi sa Terrazo! Sana masaya, haha Ü Yun na muna!Ü

Hmm...

Pak. Ngayon ko lang na-realize na pareho kami ng blog template ng isang taong higit sa lahat hindi ko dapat maging kapareho ng blog template dahil mashado kaming maraming bagay in common... well, ISANG bagay - TAO - in common. Ang babaw, pero napuntahan ko lang ng blog nya kanina tas nag-cringe ako sobra nung nakita ko. I mean, it's just a blog, pero parang... eeeewww. Ayoko. Parang naoobjectify ko yung blogs namin, and it's like we're part of a collection... collect all five? I know I shouldn't be affected, but all the same...yuck, haha Ü

Antagal ko nang hindi nagpo-post dito. Gusto ko kase pag nag-post ako, profound yung isusulat ko... kaso may obvious lack of profundity ngayon sa buhay ko. Putsang thesis 'to, mashado akong pinapakaba e. Kung anu-ano na lang tuloy ginagawa ko.

F-R-I-E-N-D-S F-O-R-E-V-E-R

Last Wednesday JP lent me Friends DVDs from seasons three to ten, and I couldn't be happier. I woke up the other morning to watch the last four episodes of season ten I hadn't seen, and before I knew it I was crying my heart out, at 4 am, in front of the TV. I'd been itching to watch those episodes since Friends ended last May... I held out for seven months. Wow. I was so tempted to read the online transcripts pero by sheer will I didn't, and it was... so worth it. As I was watching it I had the weird feeling like all my life was just leading up to that point. Sobrang weird. It was a happy ending, but I still choked back a few sobs. Wala nang Friends, aarrggghh...



I was hooked on Friends since I watched the Thanksgiving episode where they all play touch football (from season three I think), and I've been hooked ever since. My older brother and sister, mortal enemies since birth, joined me in this addiction - I remember when they were both still single and we were all living under one roof, the three of us would all sit down and watch Friends like, well, friends. They'd actually put aside their death wishes for each other for thirty minutes and just... laugh their asses off. Those were fun times. I miss those two jerks.

Anyway, now I watch Friends alone.

F-R-I-E-N-D-S

I took a "Which Friend are you?" quiz.

Could you be anymore like Chandler? Your quirky sense of humor and general goofiness are why Chandler Bing is the friend you are most like. You think your family is nuts and spend much more time with your friends than your 'rents. You can get a little paranoid and you're a little (okay, a LOT) insecure. Despite being a tad high-maintenance, you're a great person who's bound to make anyone laugh.

Haha, I think I cheated a little. Not a lot, mind you. Pero totoo, I have nutty parents and I can get paranoid. Not to mention insecure. Oh, and favorite ko si Chandler.Ü

John Paul R. Pangilinan

JP: "Jamie gawin mo nang 49,995 yung count natin, sigurado na 'to e."

We are counting down to the number of chess games JP has to win before he sucks one million pesos off Cholo's wallet. At twenty bucks a game, he has a lot more to go. Not to say that he lacks in the ego department.

JP on Taylor Hanson: "Jamie patingin nga ng picture ng crush mong bakla... na crush ko dati."

I'm officially nominating JP as Everybody's Favorite Person.

Happy Birthday, Terence! Yihee... Ü

It's been a surreal two weeks. Nagsimula ang surrealism sa debut ni Terence Yu.

The other weekend, thirteen of us went to Los Baños to celebrate Terence's 21st birthday. There were five very important factors why it was such a great weekend:

1. Hot spring/swimming pool.
2. Videoke machine.
3. Endless food supply.
4. Booze.
5. Pictionary.

The swimming pool was nice and warm. Si IC saka si Martin nagsisisirko... tumatalon sila mula sa submerged shoulders ni Cholo tas nagbabackflip sa ere. Lupet. Si Martin naman dinedemo kung ano yung dive nya nung nakuha nya yung mga poknat nya sa ulo... hindi ko ma-explain kung paano nya yun nagawa without leaving the pool pero nakakatawa talaga. You had to be there.

Videoke machine = Dulce. Anlupet, naubusan na kami ng five-peso coins, wala nang background music. Kung akala nyong magpapapigil si Dulce, nagkakamali kayo - tuloy pa rin sha sa pagkanta, haha Ü Wala nang hiya-hiya! Di ba Dulce?

Grabe yung pagkain. Parang lahat ng pagkain at ulam na masasarap, inihain nung dalawang araw na 'yon... kare-kare, sinigang, liempo, lumpia, among many others. Panalo talaga. Terence, ikaw na!!!

So after some swimming and much videoke, punta na kami sa kuwarto, inom nang konti, gaguhan nang marami. The guys had beer... I'm not much of a beer drinker. Nilalait nga nila yung gin bilog ko sa grocery e ("Para kang kargador! Tambay ka ba sa kanto?!") kaya nauwi ako sa GSM Blue, which I have a bad history with. (Joe yun yung iniinom namin nung binati kita ng Happy Birthday. Pakshet.)

Adnan and I won at Pictionary after like ten hours of grueling play against such greats as Sweet and Neil, so it was an especially gratifying victory. Ansaya nung first game (which nobody won, kase 6 am na at higang-higa na kami) kase nagsimula kami half-drunk at kung anu-ano na yung naddrawing namin. Anlakas pa mandaya nung ibang teams, grabe... pero in the end, the best team won pa rin. At kami yon, haha! Nakakatawa nga nung pagkatapos namin manalo, pagod na kaming lahat so we settled into our respective beds, nests, corners, and sleeping bags. Apparently pumikit lang kaming lahat... kase after five minutes sabi ng isa, "Tara, swimming tayo!" tas nagtayuan bigla lahat para magswimming. Ang weird.Ü

Umuwi kami nung Sunday ng hapon, and speeding along C-5 our car almost hit a big brown something along the highway. Nung inikutan namin, gumalaw yung thing, at hindi lang gumalaw - it had boobs! Big boobs! It was a big naked woman! So apparently nag-aabang lang sya masagasaan sa C-5, at napagtripan nyang masagasaan nang nakahubad. Whattaway to commit suicide. Wala naman kaming magawa kase ayaw namin shang pasakayin sa kotse for fear of getting bit by a wild woman, kaya hinanap na lang namin ang nearest police station at nireport ang pangyayari. Medyo na-statstruck kaming lahat after nun. It's something you expect to see in the news - not in real, everyday life, alamuyon? Anyway hindi na namin alam kung anong nangyari sa kanya. The lady with the freaky death wish.

All in all it was a fun weekend. Kinilig ako nang maraming pagkakataon... di ba Dulce? Hahaha Ü We (the group) didn't exactly need another bonding session - marami nang mga pangyayari sa batch na nagbuklod na sa 'min nang lubus-lubusan - pero the opportunity to have more fun than we deserved was much appreciated. Thanks Terence. Sana nagustuhan mo yung regalo ko.Ü

Tonight I Can Write... Again.

This is the radio edit of the post. Mashadong bulgar yung before e, baka makarating na sa kinauukulan.

I'm sorry I never told you how much I still loved you even after everything, and I'm sorry you thought I never could accept your flaws. That's not true. Because you were mine, and you were perfect.

I'm sorry I was such a disappointment to you. And I'm not even being sarcastic. I'm sorry I didn't fight enough for us, chickening out even before the fight happened. I'm sorry I wasn't as supportive of you as I should have been. But most of all I'm sorry I'm saying all of this now to everyone else on the internet but not to you, years ago, when you would have given a shit. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

"I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her."

- Pablo Neruda, "Tonight I Can Write"

--Posted by jMe to On hanging out, moving on, and lighting my own joint. at 9/7/2004 08:35:08 PM



"It just hit me, na para kang nakipagbreak sa akin for a second time."

I really didn't mean for things to seem that way. You know that. We've been through so many of that already... it's not even a second time. More like the thirtieth. And anyway a break up with someone, especially you, is the last thing I need.

Dulce is playing "Paalam Na" as I write this. Huh.

This whole affair - thing - is killing me. I'm sorry for everything. But still, it's the right thing to do. I don't expect you or anybody else to understand - even I don't understand what I did - but there. It's done, and I can't take it back.

These things alone do I regret: things left unsaid.

--Posted by jMe to On hanging out, moving on, and lighting my own joint at 10/15/2004 11:29:29 AM


I think, finally, it's over. There are still a few things to settle, pero I'm happy to report na pag nalalasing ako hindi na yun ang somehow nagiging topic ng diskusyon, at hindi ko na rin dinededicate yung mga Gudang ko dun. Ayokong i-jinx ang feeling na 'to by saying it out loud, pero gusto ko lang i-express talaga e... anlaking weight off my chest, alamuyon?

Salamat sa mga kaibigan ko... grabe talaga yung mga yun. Ito ang mga messages na pumupuno ng inbox ng phone ko:

"Let bygones be bygones... No matter what you feel you have to move on... That's the only solution... i-realize mo kung ano ka na ngayon... Face it..." - Adrian
"Move on!" - Adnan
"Stop loving him and start loving yourself!" - Joe/Cholo
"Nyt jmevoi... sweet dreams sana di mu na [sha] habulin..." - gpvoi
"How's my baby? Hope you're doing fine. Kumain ka na ba? Take care.Ü" - Mama


Kaya kailangan ko na talaga ng bagong blog title.

s2dio revival

Walang kalaman-laman ang blog ko. Hindi presentable. Recycled entries lang ang katapat ng problemang 'to, haha Ü

Di na black blog ko, Jun.

Nagrereklamo sina Jun at Tens na dapat bago na raw theme ng blog ko... so eto na yun. Gusto ku sana i-overhaul, as in ibang-iba talaga lahat, pero wala akong maisip na bagong blog title. May suggestions ba kayo, kayong iilang taong nagbabasa ng blog ko? Sige na, yung maganda... tinatamad ako mag-isip e. Haay.

Shetness. Parang after two weeks of not having a blog, nakalimutan ko na kung paano magsulat dito. Fuck blogger for deleting my blog. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

I'm back.

Just so you know, I lost my blog just last week - s2dio.blogspot.com - and I'm simply gonna chalk it up to Blogger maintenance problems. I'll sue them next week for negligence and shit. They asked me for an email address to send my user account to (because apparently it suddenly didn't exist anymore), so I put down my Yahoo! address, and they send me this account that I've totally forgotten because I created it almost two years ago, which was, as you know, a past life. So it's an old username, an old blog, but it's still s2dio.

Kaya eto na naman ako.